My name is Amanda. My blog is called “Groff’s Girl” because as a military wife I am known not as Amanda, but as “Groff’s Wife”. I am proud of my man, and he is proud to have his girl always by his side…therefore, I am Groff’s Girl! It is an ode to my husband and to my role as a proud military wife!
I am a very busy: military wife, mother of two, world traveller, PTO mom, and soccer mom! I live a hectic life, but a life that I want to be meaningful, full of great lessons for my boys, and completely fulfilling!
One thing that I need is to gain self-confidence, lose the negative tape in my head and learn to be comfortable with my body. I still see the pregnant woman when I look in the mirror, and so my mental weight loss needs to catch up with my physical weight loss, AND my physical weight loss has to get to the goal I have set for myself!
I moved to Frankfurt Germany in May of this year! I love to travel and experience new cultures, so this is a very exciting time for myself and my family. I will be using the first year here to get my second degree, and stay at home with my youngest boy (currently 16 months old); therefore, it will be a lot easier to focus on MY needs!! I look forward to all of the adventures ahead of me and I want to make sure I head into them with the best possible outlook and state of mind :)
I have always struggled with my weight (a lot of it is in my head) and with an unhealthy view of food, the scale, and my appearance. I quickly sabotage myself when I make great progress toward my goals…I am not exactly sure why I do this. Perhaps it is a from fear that I will have to think about something else once I squash these obsessions once and for all. Like letting go of a bad habit, it is hard to do, even though you know it is bad for you.
I am working hard at eating clean, exercising, finding ways to stay active that are fun and enjoyable, and staying calm/less stressed. These are all areas that are difficult for me to change and stick with (exercise is never an issue, but the eating and stressing are). I worry constantly about mundane things, and it just seems to have gotten more intense after I became a mother. I have a constant feeling of anticipation that keeps me up at night, make me mentally exhausted and really takes over any relaxation I try to accomplish. I worry for my boys and I worry about things that are unimportant or really not that big of a deal…a family trait. I worry about other people to the point that I wear myself out, and will leave myself last in order to make sure I am pleasing them first or making them happy.
I know that all areas of my life would be improved if I could end the mental weight battle once and for all. To overcome these barriers is all I ever pray for, and I know it all rests with me. I need to conquer myself in order to be the best form of myself possible. I have been stuck with ‘me’ for 32 years, so it is hard to leave ‘me’ behind and become someone better! I plan on entering an Eat Clean Diet Challenge in order to put it out there that I am going to turn the tables on my thinking by using my public goals to keep me focused and accountable! To see that I would be able to motivate others is a great way for me to think of others while ultimately caring for myself!
After turning 32 (3 days ago) I realized enough is ENOUGH! This has gone on too long, I owe it to myself, my boys, my step-daughter, and my family to see me be healthy and happy. I will overcome these barriers, I will prove to myself I am stronger than I give myself credit for, and I will be a role model once and for all!
Please join me on this journey and offer any comments or advice you would like to share with me!
Thanks for stopping by!!